In this article, I’m going to explain why I chose to stop snorting oxycodone. I used to LOVE snorting oxycodone (also called “oxy”).
It was like a dream.
However, before long this actually became my worst nightmare.
My first experience snorting oxycodone was at the age of 23.
At first I would snort about 40 mg of oxycodone, and that was enough to make me feel higher and better than any other drug in my life thus far.
However, within just a few weeks, I had built up a big tolerance, and I was using up to 160 mg a day to maintain that same great feeling.
Luckily, at that point in my life my oxy dealer ran out of pills, and I didn’t have anywhere to get them anymore.
I liked the high and numb feeling so much that I would have continued snorting oxy if I could still find them. Snorting oxycodone made me feel complete.
Addiction to Snorting Oxycodone
Fast-forward seven years…I was living in Central New York, and one day I found someone that had oxy for sale.
I had just cashed my paycheck, I had the next two days off work, and I was very excited to once again snort oxycodone.
Since it was so expensive, I could only afford to purchase about 150 mg of oxycodone.
After I bought the oxy from my new dealer, I went to my friends house with a girl I was hanging out with, and all three of us started snorting oxycodone.
I gave them a tiny bit of oxy each.
They only snorted about 10 mg of oxycodone each, which was plenty for them to feel high.
I snorted 40 mg of oxycodone and saved the rest for the weekend. That was the start of my opiate addiction.
I began spending all of my money (other than rent money) to buy pills so I could keep snorting oxycodone.
Everything I did revolved around snorting oxycodone.
I would snort oxy before work, snort oxy in the bathroom during work, and I would snort oxy when I got off work.
When I couldn’t buy oxy I would purchase other opiates. I did anything I could to keep using oxy and other opiates.
I sold things, asked people to loan me money, I lied, and I even stole a few times…just so I could continue snorting oxycodone.
I had become a full-blown opiate addict.
Why I Stopped Snorting Oxycodone
Year after becoming an opiate addict, I stopped snorting oxycodone, and I stopped all other opiates I was taking as well.
You see, snorting oxycodone was quite fun at the beginning.
I didn’t have a tolerance, and I could spend a little money, snort some oxy, then drift off to a place where life made sense.
A place with no anxiety, no depression, no worries…it was by far the best feeling in the entire world.
However, this phase ended fast. I quickly developed a tolerance to snorting oxycodone.
Then I developed an opiate dependence, meaning my body needed to keep taking oxy or other opiates or I would go into an opiate withdrawal syndrome.
A few times I wasn’t able to snort oxycodone or take other opiates, and I had to suffer through opiate withdrawal, which is one of the most horrific experiences someone can go through in life.
Another term for going through opiate withdrawal is being “dope sick.”
Snorting Oxycodone Ruined My Life
Aside from having an opiate tolerance and dependence, my addiction to snorting oxycodone led to my giving up all of my hobbies and healthy activities in life.
The addiction consumed me.
Some people are able to snort oxycodone from time-to-time for fun, and they don’t get addicted.
However, I was not one of those people.
Snorting oxycodone hits you faster and harder than taking oxy orally as its prescribed. Snorting oxycodone puts you at a higher-risk of overdose, and it’s also harder on your body than taking oxy by mouth.
There are many dangers of snorting oxycodone. For me, the consequences quickly began to outweigh the benefits.
Luckily, I was able to quit snorting oxycodone, and I also quit all other opiates as well. Within about six weeks of being clean, my life quickly became better than ever.
It’s been over five years since I was addicted to snorting oxycodone, and I don’t miss it one bit.
I have been on condones for the past 3 years. At first i started with 3 30mg a day. Then it became a ritual of doing 240mg a day. I was blowing them, popping them. Felt on top of the world. I have a great amount of supply so i rarely run out. I kicked my addiction with suboxone 8mg film. What I would do is take 1 mg pieces every 4 hours and take benadryl at night before bed. If I am feeling an anxiety attack coming i would take .25mg xanax, thats super rare though. I kicked my cravings within 3-4 days. Haven’t thought about taking any more opiates or craved. I just really don’t know what to do with the rest? should i just throw them out?
*condones should oxycodones
Hell no give them to me
I wish everyone who’s addicted to opiates finds some way out, mine started like many of you have, Dr recommended pain killers for whatever pain you had and you enjoyed the feeling and that’s all it took before you realized you loved the shit and got addicted. I was addicted for about 10 years after my eye surgery and loved the way the percs made me feel, it was the most relaxing feeling I ever felt and loved it. But like most I got hooked and it almost totally destroyed my life, all this without my family knowing, which is harder, I eventually got on subs for a year purchasing from a so called friend and tapered down using charts found online, it wasn’t easy tapering off that monster, but finally did it and have been clean 5 yrs now and wish I never go through that again. Now when Im going to have surgery or require pain meds I let my doctor know I had a problem with opiate addiction and find other meds instead of opiates. It may seem impossible sometimes when you try to stop, but one general rule does apply ” You have to really want to stop using” otherwise you’ll just start using again, prepare yourself beforehand, do research, really want to get off and you will. I wish you all the best of luck in your journey, and dont ever look back after you have stopped. I feel so much better now, food taste better, life seems better, I sleep better, EVERYTHING is better.
Laura,
You have an unbelievably tough journey ahead of you, If you can get into rehab, that’s the way to do it. If not, you will, in my opinion only, need to slowly taper. One of your biggest problems will be that you aren’t doing this for fun; you have PAIN.
But what I can tell you is that as you dose down, the pain gets LESS. Amazing. I would read through all of Matt’s articles, go to YouTube and watch ALL the calmsupport,com video’s. Matt recommends calmsupport, as do I. I have purchased almost all of Matt’s recommended herbal remedies, and still struggle to be totally clean.
If you are only taking 30 mg. of OXY, that should not be too horrible to taper down. Some people have done it with over 100 mg.
Hot bathes, etc. Lots of recommendations on YouTube which will also help you pass time as you say “One more hour has gone by.”
How is your health degrading? Is it because of the drugs? I wish there was a real legit. chat room support group to go to talk. FreefromHell.com has a chat room, but few are ever in there.
You have to decide how much you want it, and the little voice in your head will always be telling you that you need it. Your outcome depends on you and how much you want this.
I have a question?
I just turned 60 in January. I’ve raised 2 boys, and started my own business 20 years ago all while being addicted to morphine, and any opiate that was prescribed. My story is long so I’ll shorten it and ask how would you handle a high level 30 year opiate addiction like mine.
My health is degrading to much, and even though my pain is legitimate, and my MD has prescribed 30mg oxy. Plus Methadone I want to get my life back! I know what the “hellish withdrawl” nightmare is in front of me and unlike allot of addicted people? The length of time on medications, my age, and high dosage I take makes me very dubious that this program is any different then the others I’ve paid for that didn’t even begin to help.
What’s your opinion on my outcome.
Opiate addiction! I just found your blog and God knows I can’t do it myself!!!! It is amazing how quickly you are a full blow addict like me. I need help. Where do I start? freaked out