I’ve been alive for nearly four decades, and out of all the things I’ve ever been afraid of, nothing has even come close to the “Fear of Opioid Withdrawal.”
When I first started using opioids, it was all in innocence and good fun.
For ten years I was able to use pills like Percocet and OxyContin recreationally.
I absolutely loved it when I got a phone call or a text from someone I knew that said they “just filled their prescription.”
I’d buy at least a few pills, and if I had enough money, I’d buy 10 or 20.
Opiates gave me energy.
They took away all of my worries.
They made me happy, euphoric, and confident.
But after 10 years of enjoying nothing but benefits and no negative consequences…
That all changed, and it changed lightning fast.
You see, all of a sudden I had a network of friends and drug dealers that all used prescription opiates.
And I had a full-time job with paychecks every Friday.
This “Alignment of the Stars” enabled me to start using pills daily.
But after two months of daily use, everything dried up.
No more pills.
None.
Nada.
The Withdrawal
I didn’t think too much of it. But that certainly changed once the opioid withdrawal symptoms began.
About 12 hours after my last pill, I started to get anxiety.
It quickly escalated.
And within 16 hours I was having a full-blown panic attack.
For the next several days it just got worse and worse.
Total…
Full-blown…
Opioid withdrawal.
I didn’t know what real fear and sickness were until that experience.
The Fear of Withdrawal
A week later, and the pills were back in circulation again. There was a flowing river of pills, and now I had a new association with opiates.
Before I used them because they made life easier and more fun.
But now I used them to prevent withdrawal.
For years my entire life revolved around opiates.
It was the most important thing in my life because I knew that if I didn’t have enough every day…
I would get sick.
Really sick.
Beyond description sick.
“Only a person that has been through it knows” sick.
So I did anything I could to make sure I never had to go through withdrawal again.
I sold all of my valuables.
I lied.
I cheated.
I even stole from my parents.
That wasn’t the type of person I am.
And that inner-outer incongruence made me feel a world of guilt and shame.
The Fear of Withdrawal was in the driver’s seat and controlled every thought, decision, action, and behavior.
It was a “Survival-Based” way of living.
There was no fulfillment.
No joy.
No meaning.
No growth.
No peace.
I was a slave to my addiction, and I hid it from everyone I loved.
There is Hope
But thankfully, after years of struggle, I overcame my addiction.
What helped me was a combination of resources, timing, and luck, to be quite frank.
And after I got better, I felt this intense desire to help others break free of this Survival-Based manner of living.
So I created the following resources to help you succeed:
- Opiate Recovery Toolkit – A Free Digital Download that will give you valuable information on preventing withdrawal symptoms and recovering.
- Ultimate Opiate Detox 2.0 – An Online Course that shows you everything you need to know from Step 1 to FREEDOM.
- Coaching Program – One-on-One Coaching where I help you regain your old life back, free from opioid dependence.
- Blog – A huge collection of free articles and videos about opioid detox and recovery.
- YouTube Channel– A collection of free videos that have become quite popular recently.
If you’re motivated to change and you want a new life for yourself, browse through the above-mentioned resources and see which ones match up with your needs and desires the most.
I wish you the best of luck, courage, resolve, persistence, and patience.
Much love to you, my friend.
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