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My dad was suspecting something because at this point I had graduated from pills to heroin and that was a whole different beast.
They knew that something was up.
I was acting weird.
I was always needing money.
You know I always had all these excuses.
But my dad’s very intelligent.
So’s my mom.
Heroin Addiction Exposed
So one day when I was sleeping on the couch taking a nap, he grabbed my cellphone, searched through it, and within a few seconds he found text messages between me and my heroin dealer.
Oh boy oh boy… so the gig was finally up, at that point, and my parents told me if I wanted to live there then I had to quit.
But they also said they’d help me with whatever I needed.
So I was sneaky and I still used a few times more after that but then I overdosed and almost died.
Opioid and Benzo Heaven (or Hell)
I had gone to the doctor hoping to get Suboxone.
The doctor didn’t prescribe Suboxone but he did prescribe me a gigantic bottle of methadone tablets and a gigantic bottle of Valium tablets!
And so I remember being the happiest I think I’ve ever been when I went to the pharmacy and picked those up.
But within 48 hours I had overdosed on the combination of those because I took way more than enough to you know, get rid of heroin withdrawal symptoms.
I took enough to get high as a kite!
WAY higher than I was on heroin.
Overdosing on Methadone & Valium
I overdosed… almost died… and my mom went downstairs because she got this like psychic premonition that I was needing help… that I might be dying…
Found me overdosed…
Called the EMTs and they prevented me from dying by giving me a naloxone shot and taking me to the emergency room and intensive care.
I spent a week in the hospital…
Came to… and that was my ‘Ultimate Wake-up Call’.
Hitting Rock Bottom
In the last episode, I spoke on how almost leaving my daughter without a dad for the rest of her life was the rock bottom that I hit that I rebuilt my life upon.
It was the solid foundation that I rebuilt my life on.
So now that I had this crazy near-death experience and I also had strong accountability from my parents, now I embraced the process of quitting opioids (for myself, for my daughter, and for my parents).
The Power of Accountability & Support
It was really their accountability and also my good friend Ray – who used to be my sponsor many years prior and also other family and friends – because at this point everybody knew – well most everybody knew – everyone that was important to me and close with me.
And so by living with my parents – by them knowing what I was going through and saying they’d help – they held me accountable all day every day while I was detoxing from opioids.
Quitting Opioids For Good
When I got out of the hospital I had some comfort meds and I had a month off of school which (was really helpful).
I didn’t have a job at the time (which was extremely helpful) so at a month (that’s another topic for another episode too; having time off – it’s a really really helpful way to do it – and whenever I couldn’t get time off it was very difficult to do it – I did at once for four months without even having any time off work or being a single dad – but it was extremely difficult – and then I went back to using.
So without my parents knowing what I was doing and holding me accountable for quitting, I guarantee it would have been much harder for me to quit.
So even with that month off of school – with no job – nothing to do for the whole month except for take care of my kid – and that’s it – if they didn’t know that I was trying to quit – if they weren’t holding me accountable and making sure I was doing good – I can literally – I can almost guarantee you that even though that was the perfect time to quit I still would have kept using.
Because without accountability… it’s too easy to just keep going, keep using your substance or substances, or go back to using them.Listen to the Entire Podcast Episode
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